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[Aug. 19th, 2007|12:50 pm] |
i am in such a weird place.
i just need a job i think and i'll feel better. |
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[Aug. 8th, 2007|10:27 pm] |
so life in daphne is pretty crazy.
i think i'm staying for the fall.
so weird.
first time in years.
am i a baby b/c i miss my mommy?
heh. such a baby. |
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| there is no redemption in the heart of man |
[Jul. 2nd, 2007|03:40 pm] |
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| |  devastated | ] |
i cannot explain. i cannot move on. i am so lost in this life.
and he doesn't look a thing like jesus is fucking right. |
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| i'm a mermaid! lol inside joke |
[May. 29th, 2007|04:29 pm] |
there's something about floating drunkenly in the surf that makes all your problems melt away. if i couldn't go to the beach and drink with my girls, i'm not sure what kind of messed up place i'd be in right now. my heart, my car and my phone are broken. and still life is worth living every moment.
who's close enough to come to the beach on monday b/c i have a four bedroom condo that has plenty of empty beds. well, not plenty but hell if you're not willing to bunk up with someone for the beach, forget you. lol.
oh and i am staying in daphne for the whole summer now. first time in 3 years i think. i may get a job at duruma's sushi bar. exciting. |
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| changes |
[May. 23rd, 2007|08:48 pm] |
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| | party like a rockstar - shop boyz | ] |
mmk so i've been going through some changes the past .... forever.
i've broken up with my boyfriend. it's something i had to do.
i'm going to start writing and submitting things to the paper as often as possible.
i've started exercising!
slacker is no longer my middle name.
i'm an assistant manager at the tannign salon where i work!
things are different. things may be very good.
the whole josh thing is hard, but necessary.
this is life, and i'm living it.
love. |
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| things happen |
[May. 22nd, 2007|01:10 am] |
sometimes you find yourself in a battle between heart and head. head and body. body and heart. and all the other mixtures in between.
i'm finding myself telling my heart to be quiet. i'm telling my heart that it's not the only important thing. then after i do that, my head starts panicing. what if i never get to feel this way again. what if what if what if. i'm in a state of confused clarity. trying to do the right thing. but what is the right thing. is love enough. what does love define. why should it need a definition. is this love enough. god, the questions i never thought i'd ask.
i find myself reaching out in all the wrong places.
some days seem shorter than the rest.
why does alcohol make you do dumb shit. heh. |
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[May. 7th, 2007|05:22 pm] |
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| |  not good | ] |
so i ran over and killed a puppy this afternoon. |
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| Don't Panic |
[Mar. 16th, 2007|11:36 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | dorm | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | passing the time | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | crawl [live] [live] by alkaline trio | ] |
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question.
What does next year have in store for me?
Ever So Sweet
What does your love life look like?
Beverly Hills (hmmm?)
What do I say when life gets hard?
Fallen
What do I think of when I get up in the morning?
The Scientist (haha)
what song will I dance to at my wedding?
Rain
What do you want as a career?
Vacant Skies (yes!)
Your favorite saying?
The Beautiful People
Favorite place?
Head Over Feet (totally)
What do you think of your parents?
Best I Ever Had (true)
Where would you go on a first date?
Feeling Good Inc. (haha)
Drug of choice?
That's Where You Take Me
Describe yourself?
Keeping the Blade (yeah ok?)
The song that best describes the president?
Jacqueline (???)
How will I die?
Crawl [live] [live] (brackets are part of the title, hmmm?)
what song that will be played at your funeral?
King Without A Crown
The song you'll put as the subject? (Or not)
Don't Panic (sounds good to me) |
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| who needs a subject anyway |
[Mar. 7th, 2007|01:56 pm] |
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| |  discontent | ] |
hey so i'm not going to get an incomplete. my prof. is going to let me make up a bunch of stuff and take my sweet time too. man, thank goodness.
i can't wait for spring break.
i can't wait for 5:30 to roll around. (when josh should be getting back)
i can't wait to work tomorrow night and make lots of commission.
anddddddd yeah i'm going to make some tea, do some dishes and start on my paper.
i watched saving private ryan today. i hadn't seen that since i was 15. |
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[Mar. 6th, 2007|09:38 am] |
so i may have to drop a class or convince my prof. to give me an incomplete. but the others could still be A's! how messed up is that?! missed class for nearly a month and i can still make an A. but one class.... it's too far gone now. which sucks. a lot. i dunno exactly how i'm going to do this. damn.
anyhoo, i'm off to study for my last midterm.
oh and write a paper tonight.
and another tomorrow.
and another test thursday.
and then... peace. rest. the weekend.
man, it's only tuesday. |
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| hey guys, life's a peach |
[Feb. 26th, 2007|10:31 am] |
and after pretty much the best weekend ever, i start getting my life back together.
fun times.
p.s. this weekend, finish off the tequila and vodka.
PARTY AT MY PLACE! |
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| what else do i have to give that is worth so much as my heart. |
[Feb. 20th, 2007|01:41 pm] |
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| |  who knows | ] |
it's funny how some of us stopped really writing on livejournal when we left highschool, decided to be grown ups, only post photos, updates, whatever. i'm not really sure what point i'm trying to make or if i'm saying anything at all. i guess i'm never sure if i'm saying something real or not. if i had to describe life in one word, it would be funny. there's just no other way to put it. eh, i don't know what i'm doing here.
when it seems all the world is judging me, i feel so small. then i look at you and see we are the same. and then i don't feel so small anymore. so thank you. |
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[Feb. 6th, 2007|09:06 am] |
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| |  tired | ] |
i went to the SAC this morning and worked out. i got there at 8 am. i can't stress what a freak occurence this was enough. i used several machines, the correct way i might add, and ran a mile on the eliptical in fat burn mode. i also did crunches.
i'm going to be sore tomorrow.
today, i'm going to do some catching up on school work, professor e-mailing, and other miscellaneous errands. then i work 4-8. and then i'll be doing some much needed socializing. and then i'll probably pass out from exhuastion around 12.
tomorrow, class and then work 4-8.
thursday, class and a make up test.
today is the first day i've been in my dorm room in over two weeks.
hey, i turn 21 on the 23rd this month. (exciting!)
we're going to see the movie 23, have dinner at a sushi place, and eventually go downtown and get our drink on. we can start getting our drink on at the sushi place i suppose.
man, this is gunna be fun.
:D |
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| and it's wednesday |
[Jan. 17th, 2007|12:52 pm] |
lotion seminars are ... well they are seminars about tanning lotion.
haha. i got free lotion though! and paid of course.
actually making it to class has been easy thus far. i'm impressed.
my room is still a mess. go figure.
it will be cute!
i just decided that i should have a double concentration in both journalism and broadcast.
there's just more opportunity that way.
p.s. i love my major.
EVERYONE AND I MEAN EVERY SINGLE PERSON HAS SOME FORM OF OCD, MILD OR SEVERE.
WHAT'S YOURS?
if someone (including myself) says a random short phrase i absolutely must check and see (mentally) if it has an equal amount of letters on each row if spelled out on a keyboard. if it is not equal i must come up with a new phrase that is similar and makes at least partial sense, that is equal on each row. spaces and punctuation do not count.
i.e.
i love him
i o e i
l h
v m
not equal.
i love back
i o e
l a k
v b c
equal. |
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[Jan. 10th, 2007|10:04 pm] |
my room is still such a mess. lol. i can see floor!
umm, just thought i'd take a break and procrastinate.
i like my new room mate free room. it's the best.
allllso, my classes are eaaasy.
ummm, zapopans... rock.
that's all. |
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| you are the most beautiful person i've ever known |
[Dec. 27th, 2006|01:15 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | bawston (cambridge) | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  recumbent | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | street traffic | ] |
after a long hot bath and a warm cup of tea i'm finally off to bed. if only you were here this would all be so perfect. there's a great comfort in my heart knowing you'll be there when i return. so i'll sleep tonight and probably dream of your face again. this night i spend away from you is much less hard than the rest. i can't begin to describe how just knowing absolutely makes me feel. but this comfort is bittersweet. i long for the warmth of your voice touch or presence tonight. |
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[Dec. 26th, 2006|05:26 pm] |
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ps feeling poetic again |
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